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Okay, this is just some rambling, you’re forewarned.

Mood: Close the da*n doors
Listening to: Panic at the Disco: I write Sins, not Tragedies.
Reading: Bad Love
Watching: None


[No the image is not me.]

Okay so here are the thoughts I have been going through. As of late, I have been thinking, “Who are my friends on gaia?” And then I narrow it down. None really have ever considered being my true best friend with out sober behavior really.


Taking steps seriously, now that I notice it, sometimes when I need attention the most, perhaps is when some of them don’t really care for it. There has only been one to actually have a bit more attention on me, even while everyone else is just perhaps dizzy with their own world... maybe... Do I belong in it with them? I don’t really know, but I guess I need to focus on my reality check, and just realize, they’re really not, and well... You can’t always get what you want. I got one thing though. I guess I got one friend out of those on gaia, [Unless I know you in real life.]

I’ve been really trying to keep things strict by calling people by their name that they prefer unless we’re true friends. Well, pretty much the only one I can find truly a friend right now is Jenn. [Maybe three others, but that’s just the closest one I know, yet haven’t called her. O_o.]

It’s not like a lesbian Xena, Gabriel thing, it’s just she’s the only one I know who seems to not get lost too easily to the point that I don’t exist.

Okay. So I can do some okay art from time to time, BUT... This so called relationship goes no further than business really.

There are some things that seem to cause conflicts in my thoughts of some people, and some people I admit to being jealous of, but to this point... Eh. I give up ‘Looking’ for ‘friendship’ really. If it’s there it might find me. Or it just might be an art leach just pretending. I don’t care. Though I’d like to count a few as friends, for being honest that they really aren’t. At least I got that much.

Is it just me or sanity left the building with a whore?